tell 'em how you feel...
I saw this concept on Xquizzyt's blog and I actually wrote this blog out a while back... I was going to post it before the year ended but I didn't get around to it... so I decided to post it now. I always say that I try to start a year with a clean slate and what better way to clear the slate then to get all your feelings out (good or bad) so you can get rid of baggage, GROW, and make progress.... So here goes telling 13 how I feel
disclaimer: this is somewhat long so if you aren't in the mood to read check out the pics I took at the 80's party this weekend *smile*
1. I miss you so much. There is not a day that goes by that you do not affect/effect my life in some sort of way. There are so many things I wish that I could go back and rewind but then I know my life would not be the same right now. You helped shape me into the woman that I am today and I love you with all my heart and appreciate you for being you.
2. I love you. Every time I see you and every time I talk to you, you make my heart smile. Your simplistic way of showing your love to me makes me strive to be a better person. A hug, a kiss, a smile, a hello and an I love you from you makes my heart melt. I want nothing more then for you to achieve greatness and I will do everything in my power to make sure that happens.
3. Living in the moment is great. But I've realized even if the moment is good it doesn't mean who I'm sharing the moment with is. Something about you makes the bells sound. I'm not sure if you are a test in my life or a hurdle I was supposed to jump over but I tripped and fell instead. I'm not sure what your purpose is in my life, but until it's made known you are no longer welcome. Until you can open up and not be so flippant, until you decide to say some shyt instead of me doing all the talking when it comes to serious matters and until you just show me more respect in general then all I have to say is f**k you and it's been nice knowing you.
4. I am here for you. I will be here for you until the day we die. When God places a person in your life who's purpose is to share your heart, you hold on to them tightly and with care. I am learning patience and how to become the woman I need to be for you. You have not only captivated my heart but have connected with my spirit. A title just sets limits on what you are to me. Our bond supersedes all that I could ever imagine.
5. I thought that I hated you but I realized that I just can't. The emotion I feel toward you is pity. Pity because you create situations and circumstances to make your life how you wish for it to be. Pity because if you lived confidently and trusted your true self you could actually be a person that rises from his circumstance and pity because you allowed your lies to not only hurt me but hurt others and yourself. You did not love yourself enough to be honest with yourself. You did not love me enough to be honest with me or yourself. I really want to hate you but I can't. Because you are the one person that I feel like I need to consistantly uplift in prayer. My hope for you is that you become an honest man and become honest with yourself and live in truth.
6. You are a really good friend. When I first met you I didn't like you. I just hung with you because you were my friends friend and now you are someone who I can honestly say I've grown with. We have gone from high school to college and are now women. We have cried to each other over the phone and you listened to me and supported me so many times when I wanted to quit. You even introduced me to Zion and I love you for that. You are a friend that I feel like I get all angles of support from and I love how we are not only growing as friends but in Christ as well.
7. As much as you get on my nerves I pray that you know that you are my everything. There are no words to express how I feel about you. You have been everything to me and have supported me through EVERYTHING that I have done from day one 23 years ago. If it was two am and I needed to cry I could call you and you'd pray with me. That fifty dollars that went in my account every two weeks was such a blessing on top of all the other ways you were financially blessing me. I know I could never repay you for all that you do for me but I will make sure that you are taken care of until it can't be done anymore. I tell you daily but I want you to know now I love you whole heartedly.
8. You are such an inspiration! I don't know how you balance all the things that you do. When I was little I couldn't wait until I grew up so that I could do all the things that you did. You had all the "cool" guys and friends, went to all the parties and was a fashionista. I couldn't wait to be grown like you. When you went away to college I cried and cried, I didn't understand why you had to go. While growing up I didn't always treat you the best and I apologize. Now as an adult I swear you are tougher on me then the person that gave me life. Although we are many years apart our bond is special. I thank you for keeping secrets, having my back, dropping everything and coming over when you can tell I've been crying and birthing three people that have changed my life in so many ways. I love you for being you and being a part of my life!
9. I forgive you. In spite of you taking something from me that was never offered to you and I can never get back I can say that I still forgive you. Years have passed and while I have soared you have withered and dried up like a raisin in the sun. I'm amazed that I can see you and not hate you, yet you can look at me and have anger in your eyes. You stole from me something that I never would have given you yet you feel like I have robbed you of everything. How does that work? You could be a lot worst off then how you are now. I admit my tactics in retaliation were wrong, but that was better then your other option.
10. You make me smile. Every time I speak to you you make me laugh. We met under some crazy circumstances and I was like who is this boy trying so hard to be funny. We began to talk on the phone and we'd be straight cracking jokes hours and hours. I just knew when you went to college the friendship would end. Now the bond is tighter. You've seen the other side most people haven't and know the non-prissy, ESPN watching, paintballing, belching contest, drunk karaoke me. You always offer me insight and honesty and are a perfect example of a friend.
11. In the perfect world... isn't that how the statement began? Well the world isn't perfect and I guess that's a good thing because I see that being with you would be one of the biggest mistakes I could make. We share so many things yet so many things keep us apart. We are water and oil, we only mix in turbulant situations and who wants to build anything off of that. You tell me to move on but when I try to swim away you keep pulling me back on shore. How can I move on if you aren't letting me go?
12. And then there were two. That first day five or so years ago I was not feeling the short girl with the long hair who had an attitude. Then she kind of grew on me. Then we became friends and then we hung out with the masses. Then we worked together. Then we hung out together. Then the masses dwindled. And then there were two. We graduated early together, gave pep talks over IM, hated men together, talked about people together, now we even blog together lol. You are a great friend and one of the few people on earth that I talk to like every single day. I'm glad you are my partner in crime.
13. I wish you nothing but love and happiness. I have known you forever and you are someone I love with ALL my heart. I wish you happiness and blessings and success. I wish you fame and fortune and LOVE. I wish you success in relationships, in career, in your spiritual life, in your daily walk and in living up to the destiny that God placed you on earth to fulfill. You are a chosen woman and a woman of virtue. You are zealous in all you do and are annointed in so many ways. I love you and want you to make yourself a vessel so that you can be utilized in the way you should be.
disclaimer: this is somewhat long so if you aren't in the mood to read check out the pics I took at the 80's party this weekend *smile*
1. I miss you so much. There is not a day that goes by that you do not affect/effect my life in some sort of way. There are so many things I wish that I could go back and rewind but then I know my life would not be the same right now. You helped shape me into the woman that I am today and I love you with all my heart and appreciate you for being you.
2. I love you. Every time I see you and every time I talk to you, you make my heart smile. Your simplistic way of showing your love to me makes me strive to be a better person. A hug, a kiss, a smile, a hello and an I love you from you makes my heart melt. I want nothing more then for you to achieve greatness and I will do everything in my power to make sure that happens.
3. Living in the moment is great. But I've realized even if the moment is good it doesn't mean who I'm sharing the moment with is. Something about you makes the bells sound. I'm not sure if you are a test in my life or a hurdle I was supposed to jump over but I tripped and fell instead. I'm not sure what your purpose is in my life, but until it's made known you are no longer welcome. Until you can open up and not be so flippant, until you decide to say some shyt instead of me doing all the talking when it comes to serious matters and until you just show me more respect in general then all I have to say is f**k you and it's been nice knowing you.
4. I am here for you. I will be here for you until the day we die. When God places a person in your life who's purpose is to share your heart, you hold on to them tightly and with care. I am learning patience and how to become the woman I need to be for you. You have not only captivated my heart but have connected with my spirit. A title just sets limits on what you are to me. Our bond supersedes all that I could ever imagine.
5. I thought that I hated you but I realized that I just can't. The emotion I feel toward you is pity. Pity because you create situations and circumstances to make your life how you wish for it to be. Pity because if you lived confidently and trusted your true self you could actually be a person that rises from his circumstance and pity because you allowed your lies to not only hurt me but hurt others and yourself. You did not love yourself enough to be honest with yourself. You did not love me enough to be honest with me or yourself. I really want to hate you but I can't. Because you are the one person that I feel like I need to consistantly uplift in prayer. My hope for you is that you become an honest man and become honest with yourself and live in truth.
6. You are a really good friend. When I first met you I didn't like you. I just hung with you because you were my friends friend and now you are someone who I can honestly say I've grown with. We have gone from high school to college and are now women. We have cried to each other over the phone and you listened to me and supported me so many times when I wanted to quit. You even introduced me to Zion and I love you for that. You are a friend that I feel like I get all angles of support from and I love how we are not only growing as friends but in Christ as well.
7. As much as you get on my nerves I pray that you know that you are my everything. There are no words to express how I feel about you. You have been everything to me and have supported me through EVERYTHING that I have done from day one 23 years ago. If it was two am and I needed to cry I could call you and you'd pray with me. That fifty dollars that went in my account every two weeks was such a blessing on top of all the other ways you were financially blessing me. I know I could never repay you for all that you do for me but I will make sure that you are taken care of until it can't be done anymore. I tell you daily but I want you to know now I love you whole heartedly.
8. You are such an inspiration! I don't know how you balance all the things that you do. When I was little I couldn't wait until I grew up so that I could do all the things that you did. You had all the "cool" guys and friends, went to all the parties and was a fashionista. I couldn't wait to be grown like you. When you went away to college I cried and cried, I didn't understand why you had to go. While growing up I didn't always treat you the best and I apologize. Now as an adult I swear you are tougher on me then the person that gave me life. Although we are many years apart our bond is special. I thank you for keeping secrets, having my back, dropping everything and coming over when you can tell I've been crying and birthing three people that have changed my life in so many ways. I love you for being you and being a part of my life!
9. I forgive you. In spite of you taking something from me that was never offered to you and I can never get back I can say that I still forgive you. Years have passed and while I have soared you have withered and dried up like a raisin in the sun. I'm amazed that I can see you and not hate you, yet you can look at me and have anger in your eyes. You stole from me something that I never would have given you yet you feel like I have robbed you of everything. How does that work? You could be a lot worst off then how you are now. I admit my tactics in retaliation were wrong, but that was better then your other option.
10. You make me smile. Every time I speak to you you make me laugh. We met under some crazy circumstances and I was like who is this boy trying so hard to be funny. We began to talk on the phone and we'd be straight cracking jokes hours and hours. I just knew when you went to college the friendship would end. Now the bond is tighter. You've seen the other side most people haven't and know the non-prissy, ESPN watching, paintballing, belching contest, drunk karaoke me. You always offer me insight and honesty and are a perfect example of a friend.
11. In the perfect world... isn't that how the statement began? Well the world isn't perfect and I guess that's a good thing because I see that being with you would be one of the biggest mistakes I could make. We share so many things yet so many things keep us apart. We are water and oil, we only mix in turbulant situations and who wants to build anything off of that. You tell me to move on but when I try to swim away you keep pulling me back on shore. How can I move on if you aren't letting me go?
12. And then there were two. That first day five or so years ago I was not feeling the short girl with the long hair who had an attitude. Then she kind of grew on me. Then we became friends and then we hung out with the masses. Then we worked together. Then we hung out together. Then the masses dwindled. And then there were two. We graduated early together, gave pep talks over IM, hated men together, talked about people together, now we even blog together lol. You are a great friend and one of the few people on earth that I talk to like every single day. I'm glad you are my partner in crime.
13. I wish you nothing but love and happiness. I have known you forever and you are someone I love with ALL my heart. I wish you happiness and blessings and success. I wish you fame and fortune and LOVE. I wish you success in relationships, in career, in your spiritual life, in your daily walk and in living up to the destiny that God placed you on earth to fulfill. You are a chosen woman and a woman of virtue. You are zealous in all you do and are annointed in so many ways. I love you and want you to make yourself a vessel so that you can be utilized in the way you should be.
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